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Twinkle Twinkle Night.
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Twinkle Twinkle Night. Funny. I thought I did not want to go<b> clubbing </font></b>because I have an important meeting tomorrow morning, but it's almost 4am now and I'm still here.... The truth is it's really much less tiring to stay up late at home than to go out and stay out late in the crowds. In fact, it's almost half as tiring at least...? I hate my hair now, but sometimes I like how I look? I think it's just how I happens to 'style' it sometimes? Of course it was all unintentional... I really couldn't be much bothered with my look and my hair now.... Still waiting... Tomorrow we have a meeting and I'm meeting people from the outside, and I look terrible now.... I couldn't bear to take too many looks at my little bunny. He tried to clean his face like he would usually do just now... But he just can't. Somehow he reminds me of my late grandmother.. She had a stroke and ended up in a wheelchair. She couldn't show much proper facial expressions, but we knew when she tried to smile. Too many people were after her money after she had that terrible stroke, although many claimed not to. There were too many stories among the too many people. I just couldn't tell what was the truth? When my grandmother passed away, I was the 1st one to shear a tear while we 1st pretended it was nothing. Then everyone followed. People quarrelled. Then they got together. Then they each went their own ways. We never meet up in one big family like we used to in grandma's house again... I wish there's more I can do for my little bunny. But for now, I realised it's so little.... I am reminded how little we can sometimes do things to certain situations we face in life... That choices sometimes are limited, if there's any useful ones at all...? I suddenly recall what a miser I used to be especially when I was still quite very young... I'm certainly much more easily going with too many things now... Even sometimes I wonder if it's a bad thing? I was in the toilet shitting again. I almost ran out of toilet paper.... As it began to happen and as soon as I realised it, I started to use sparingly. But it appears that my worry was uncalled for, I had more than enough. Makes me realise that I'm trying to get so relaxed now that I couldn't bother to think too much in advance for too many things which are happening around me for now.... I was trying to view the webcams earlier, but somehow they were all blank though I was sure I was connected.... I wish I could play my ball game, but I have no confidence in my ankle. I know it has yet to properly recover and if I try anything funny now, I would stand a high chance of really damaging it. I'm glad I still can run though? I was taking it for granted the last time I ran... I went too fast and I think the strain's building in.... It started hurting more after my last run. Now it's slightly better. I wish I could really be sleeping enough one day though? So that I would feel so refreshed again for my run. It has been a while.... So long since the last time I had a proper sleep the night before my run... I think it's like a year ago at least...? These days I'm all messed up, I think sleeping adequately for a night might just end up not so enough afterall....? At night, in clubs. There're ladies who are just out to club. End of the night they just wanna go home. There're some others who are out to look for 'something else'... But they too somehow ended up 'doing nothing' and back home too....? There're 'predators' and there are 'preys'..... Sometimes I wonder does it matter if I'm good in sex or not.... Of course it does....? Silly question.  Good sex are memorable.... Sex with attractive people, interesting people and the people they have chemistry with are MEMORABLE too.....
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I thought I've got a 'better' entry on shit....?? 
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