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Autumn Check in. Just doing it.
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Autumn Check in. Just doing it.  Me coming home from school last week, everyday me. Well the first actual autumn storms are coming through town, rain cool weather... I personally love it! Funny, living in the Pacific NW and listening to people complain about the weather... I'm like,"So move to Phoenix". I had my fun vacation in California and Seattle. Good for me to get myself out 'on the road', out of my safe local little rat's maze. Three states in a few weeks, planes and their new fangled crummy restrictions, and service. I remember the red neck TSA guy looking at my brunette pictured I.D. asking is this me? You bet champ.... My friend in Seattle is a great girl, mom... such a good friend. She just picked me up and flung me into her life, introducing me to all her current friends... taking me everywhere to all variety of social events. Had a blast. One thing we did together was, I took her to a fancy department store to get a bra fitting... she took me to buy my 1st bra 3 years ago. She had the good fortune of going from a 34A to a 32C, I joked with her about how much money she just saved on cosmetic surgery. It did impact her a great deal, she was very thrilled by just the improvement and comfort... not just the numeric result. So I'm lounging there in a big cozy chair while she is doing her thing in the dressing room. The clerk came and got me- she needed opinions... she treats me like a sister. But I took her another batch of bras to try on, turning the corner into the dressing room was an amazing collection of lovely young women in varied states of undress fighting for the big 3 way mirror... I averted my eyes, and entered the dressing room to help my friend. Funny how I still come across these seeming innocent moments and confront these little batches of feelings, "Oh my". I bought her a lovely expensive piece, she one as well and off we went to a lovely meal prepared my her jazz musician boyfriend.. and re group and out to a nightclub... a very conventional straight night club. All in all, I have not encountered any hostility in my quest to be a conventional person in the world. People figure out I am different, sure, but are rather amazed. I am sober, casual, friendly, sort of cute, and make most people laugh - a lot. Anyway, I am just having a great time living a very regular life... trying to put my best non freakish foot forward. It seems to be working. My inner voice tells me most people have just never met someone like me. They've experienced the stereotypes on television talk shows, or seen over the top facsimiles of me on gay pride floats or the stage at a drag bar. I've become something different. In my case just an authentic version of myself, aligning the external with the internal. I am in my last class at school, will have my certification in a few weeks... then (gasp!) it is time to go look for work. I admit to feeling a bit uneasy about that. Not finding a job, I always do. More concerned about the inevitable trip of being in Human Resources, when it is time for the dirty work mixed with being<b> transsexual... </font></b>it will be interesting. One thing I have learned these past many months is confronting my fears with clarity and honesty it all just seems to work out fine. My wife and I were happy for 20 years, and then we met.- Rodney Dangerfield |
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11/10/2010 10:37 pm |
Best wishes hon. All my best.
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