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Blogs > openwm > Just a Thought

Head full of doubt  

openwm 58M
1313 posts
7/19/2011 4:12 am
Head full of doubt

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
And in the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what’s right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

Why is it that the head full of doubt seems to win so often?

openwm 58M
6971 posts
8/2/2011 6:46 pm
    Quoting  :
Prayers will work hon. God knows my needs and my families needs far more than I do myself. I'm definitely at a point of surrender.

BTW - 8 more days and a 26 year anniversary of my stopping all the hoorah in my life that was killing me comes around!


openwm 58M
6971 posts
7/23/2011 7:02 pm
    Quoting  :
These are actually song lyrics to a country/pop cross over song. It's a pretty decent song but I had never really listened to the words until I was on my way to work the other day. So I decided to post it.

And remember, I've met you. I don't think you to be overly arrogant either.


openwm 58M
6971 posts
7/20/2011 7:37 pm
    Quoting japaneseass:
    i always struggle with a headful of doubt myself...maybe i am a perfectionist...i feel like i am not doing enough..i can do better...maybe something to do with my upbringing as a japanse when i was a child...i was supposed to bring all the good thing for our family...not a shame...but here i am, i got married to an American GI...got divorced...got mixed race kids...yeah...that's not really traditional way of Japanese...some conflicts in me...

    hey on the other hand...i think you are always great...i know you are doing your best...keep up the good work...don't let the dark side win over the good side...peace...
Thank you sweetie. My attitude has been so down or negative lately and I am trying to change my focus. Change is a brewing and I'm ready for it. Change can be a really good thing. We all have our issues and Lord knows we have our past. Funny how I'm no longer ashamed of my past or the choices I've made. Be they right or wrong. It's all apart of what has made me who I am today.


japaneseass 56F  
50231 posts
7/20/2011 3:09 pm

 i always struggle with a headful of doubt myself...maybe i am a perfectionist...i feel like i am not doing enough..i can do better...maybe something to do with my upbringing as a japanse when i was a child...i was supposed to bring all the good thing for our family...not a shame...but here i am, i got married to an American GI...got divorced...got mixed race kids...yeah...that's not really traditional way of Japanese...some conflicts in me...

hey on the other hand...i think you are always great...i know you are doing your best...keep up the good work...don't let the dark side win over the good side...peace...


openwm 58M
6971 posts
7/20/2011 10:41 am
    Quoting  :
Thank you. The check is in the mail.


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