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Don't stop now, judge the fuck away...
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Don't stop now, judge the fuck away... Mother fuckers I'm on a roll right now.....and yes, I've missed you too. I have not written a word in almost two years and still have watchers? WTF? I would say that would fall under more of a<b> stalker </font></b>than watcher category, ya think? But whatever. I love you fuckers too. As usual....THANK YOU for giving a shit...even if you're just pretending. (Apparently I react better to 'fake' feelings anyway.) Yeah, it's been a long fucking while. If nothing else I've learned, this place was some kick ass therapy. And for fucks sakes....I will ALWAYS need therapy..  I am aware I'm no literary giant by any stretch. There is something with anger AND alcohol that fuels my writing. I HAVE to have BOTH....or I can't (seriously, CAN NOT) do it. I have tried. I've been away because I was happy....for a minute. And by "happy" I mean I didn't want to die, and by "minute" I mean....umm.... I mean minute by fucking minute at the most importune times. Because I believed. I TRIED to believe. My theory is, if you are here (on this site) you are, for the most part...a realist, a fucking pervert, or a fake (basically it is all the same depending upon your political status....or something) Whatever, I digress. In my opinion, if you are "here" you have issues. I don't say that in a judgmental type way....it's actually the opposite. Because I am the last person to judge anyone....for ANYTHING. Seriously. I am "friends" on fb, with a few people I have "met" here ( not necessarily IRL ) I know their "real" names etc....but no matter who it is, I see their screen name here. For example when I read "Kelly's" update there....it is still "Subs". (Kind of, I'm using me for an example...I don't actually think of myself as Subs...sorry I had to spell that out for the fucktards.... in a totally non-judgmental way  ) In some ways, I believe more of what I read here from them, because its anonymous. There, sometimes, you have to edit what you say...or face the consequences.Anyway....that all being said..... Judge the fuck away.... I got myself into a mess. A GIANT- oh my fucking gawd how the fuck did she do that - kinda mess....Yes, I know my faithful readers, you are shocked right now. Take a moment. I understand. Yes if you've read anything I've ever written, it does involve a married dude...(Specifically... read here Could I be a bigger mess toward the end about "the proposition" etc) which technically is not even the biggest issue.  The issue is we now work together.... everyday....literally "partners" in a VERY business sense. But more disturbing is his wife and I are now ' f r i e n d s ' ( I'm using the term loosely...thus the spaces) Because my definition of friend, doesn't not allow for what I have done (am doing) to her.NO I am still not....or will ever be a pinch hitter...I am strictly dickly...ALWAYS!!! But after the manipulation etc on his part....I have realized how little I know/knew about myself. I have come to realize my whole "honesty, truth, etc" spiel that I thought WAS ME....is one of the biggest lies I've ever told.... to myself included. It turns out, I am one of the best fucking liars I've ever known. I was so busy trying to make sure I didn't get hurt, I protected myself in the worst way possible. I took prisoners. How the fuck did that happen. "The truth shall set you free.....but first it will probably piss you the f{=}ck off!!" ღ ღ To Be Perfectly Blunt... ღ ღ ~ღ~ Latest Posts ~ღ~ ~~ Does this pole make me look fat~~ * A squirter Who fucking knewreally *~* Winning Losing Who the fuck cares * Could I be a bigger mess *~* And now, back to our regularly scheduled program |
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You'll get no judgement from me here. I've read this type of revelation more than once, and all affairs have the potential to get messy or "complicated". Guess I don't have any advise either. (But then again, you didn't ask for any anyway.) But was glad to finally see something written my you!  This place has gone though some changes, but I wouldn't call them improvements. 
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No need to Judge, we all do things for a reason it's how we make it right is the hard part.
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Happy Birthday, want2sub4
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I kinda wanna say "welcome back"... but like you, being back on here means something is missing in your life (again). Dunno if you want or even care to, but take a look at my "LAST" blog post. I wish you all the best, doll. And hope you get out of your mess to feel the sun on your face (and buns) again. ~ Always. 
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I kinda wanna say "welcome back"... but like you, being back on here means something is missing in your life (again). Dunno if you want or even care to, but take a look at my "LAST" blog post. I wish you all the best, doll. And hope you get out of your mess to feel the sun on your face (and buns) again. ~ Always. I did, I commented and hopefully I will find that too someday.You are a good man P...I'm very blessed and thankful to have known you. Love and best wishes ALWAYS... K "The truth shall set you free.....but first it will probably piss you the f{=}ck off!!" ღ ღ To Be Perfectly Blunt... ღ ღ ~ღ~ Latest Posts ~ღ~ ~~ Does this pole make me look fat~~ * A squirter Who fucking knewreally *~* Winning Losing Who the fuck cares * Could I be a bigger mess *~* And now, back to our regularly scheduled program
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Wow-- Almost didn't expect to have you respond. SO nice to know you still like me. We ended on a down note. Always hated that. Be well, special lady. Will never forget you. <3
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You'll get no judgement from me here. I've read this type of revelation more than once, and all affairs have the potential to get messy or "complicated". Guess I don't have any advise either. (But then again, you didn't ask for any anyway.) But was glad to finally see something written my you! This place has gone though some changes, but I wouldn't call them improvements. "The truth shall set you free.....but first it will probably piss you the f{=}ck off!!" ღ ღ To Be Perfectly Blunt... ღ ღ ~ღ~ Latest Posts ~ღ~ ~~ Does this pole make me look fat~~ * A squirter Who fucking knewreally *~* Winning Losing Who the fuck cares * Could I be a bigger mess *~* And now, back to our regularly scheduled program
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I think that "random thought" may be pretty dead on....thanks for the insight. "The truth shall set you free.....but first it will probably piss you the f{=}ck off!!" ღ ღ To Be Perfectly Blunt... ღ ღ ~ღ~ Latest Posts ~ღ~ ~~ Does this pole make me look fat~~ * A squirter Who fucking knewreally *~* Winning Losing Who the fuck cares * Could I be a bigger mess *~* And now, back to our regularly scheduled program
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Wow-- Almost didn't expect to have you respond. SO nice to know you still like me. We ended on a down note. Always hated that. Be well, special lady. Will never forget you. <3 I also see you are as predictable as ever...not following my advice: "It does my heart good to know you are happy again! So if you are reading this I must say.... Get the fuck off of here, GO BANG THE SHIT OUT OF YOUR WOMAN and don't EVER look back!!! Hugs, kisses and best wishes ALWAYS... <3 K" Remember?? WTF!!!!! LOL Lather, rinse, repeat. Don't fuck it up again. You love her....get the fuck off here. Oh for the record, Kitten still has me blocked. Really? Isn't kindergarten over YET??  "The truth shall set you free.....but first it will probably piss you the f{=}ck off!!" ღ ღ To Be Perfectly Blunt... ღ ღ ~ღ~ Latest Posts ~ღ~ ~~ Does this pole make me look fat~~ * A squirter Who fucking knewreally *~* Winning Losing Who the fuck cares * Could I be a bigger mess *~* And now, back to our regularly scheduled program
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