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Infatuation guy : the origin
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Infatuation guy : the origin Of course, most of the times, there is a reason why you name yourself the way u do. Even though the name is inspired by an incident that happened many years back, i just put it up only a year back. And I'd like to believe that it is apt.. It all starts back when I was still in my 11th grade. I was good looking as I still am, good in studies, first in class, Was good in sports too. Had tonnes of friends around me. I couldnt ask for a better life back then. I was not bad at the ladies end too, judging by the fact that I was attracting a lot of attention and rumours from them... sweet! But like I came to understand later, it had less to do with my grades, or even my appearance. Those were just the supplements. The real deal that created quite a stir was my attitude. I was kinda shy back then, not to mention modest in my ways. But the overwhelming attention that I was getting was purely due to the fact of how less of it I was giving back. Every person in his teens has issues, which comes due to his/her mad cravings for fame, success, attention, desire and lust. I had none, nothing extreme at least. And hence, I stood still, and smiled, as the others pranced around, desperately trying to find closure in their oh-so-confusing little worlds. The power of attitude becomes unfathomable in these circumstances. When you are in control of yourself, you control everyone. And so did I. Now there was this girl who was senior to me. She was as normal a girl, as one could be, except for the fact that she was really attractive, and a centre of attraction of her class. Not to mention that she was mature, and open about her needs. Lemme tell you one thing about attractive people. One usually likes to think that extremely attractive people dont have extreme desires. Well, folks, thats a lie! They are perceived so because they have to keep turning down advances from all ends, and need to be really choosy about finding someone who can suit their profile, which is hard to find! But guess thats what keeps them on the prowl, at all times. The greatest and the simplest irony of this twisted world is only this: we run towards those who run away from us. We run away from those who run towards us. No wonder there is always something that costs someone in every kind of relation. We find satisfaction, when we keep someone discontent. We find gratification when we have dissappointed someone. Hence the only logical thing that could be done, is to understand these facts and be aware that if someone you are crazy about deserts you, its probably nothing personal, it could be psychological. coming back to that girl, we came to know each other, and judging by the fact that I sent so less of signals of any intentions deep down, she stuck to me. The most important thing to be understood is that attractive women are, most of the times, looking ONLY for a person who can behave normally around them, at all times. Someone who cannot/does not freak her out. And as simple as that, she started having the hots for me, just coz of how composed I was and how remarkably ordinary i kept the thing going. You call a spade, a spade, and she'd give the whole deck of hers to you. As time went by, she grew more close to me, more than I was getting close to her, and started giving those unmistakable signs to take things to a physical level. I seriously still cant fathom why I didn't find a passion for her likewise. Maybe I was not ready for such stuff. Maybe I needed time. I did have a fairly big sexual libido back then. But the advent of actually getting down to being physical with a girl was slightly intimidating. Maybe thats why I was not very enthusiastic of this offer, and that perhaps made her more horny. Finally the time that we did end up having sex, I was kinda tensed, half-hearted, and unwillingly submissive. And thats why, it was the best sex she ever had. Sure, it sounds very sissy from my side, but it taught me a lesson, in person, of how things are in life. I could never forget this. In the aftermath, she got really involved in me, desperately seeking my attention. It was a clear case of infatuation, a feeling that lies between desire and love, something than can shake you up to the core, something than can drive you mad with desire, something that can make u addicted to seeking someone's attention, something that needs to be understood properly and avoided carefully. And maybe that was wat kinda made me repel her. She had lost her cool, and hence she ceased to be the person who she was in the first place. Not so long after, I got transferred to another place, and I had to call it off with her, and she was heart broken. Looking back at this now, it seems like a dream. A girl so beautiful, having the hots for me, while I try to sidestep her advances?? I've got to be touched in the head to be doing something like that!! But I couldnt get a better example as a life experience as to the fact that it all depends on attitude, and nothing else. Sure, after that incident, there were a lot of times when I got infatuated over someone, and had to be at the receiving end of it many times. It made me realize how discontent and dissappointed it makes you feel. But then, give it 25 more years, and i'd be appreciating all of this. To be young and to feel the sting of infatuation, is something that doesnt keep happening all your life. One day or the other, it all has to end, as you grow old. Thus, it really doesnt matter much to me now whether i'm making others infatuated, or others making me that way. It dont matter if im at the giving or receiving end. What matters is that it makes me feel alive, feel the rush of things! and taste the bitter sweet throes of desire. And so, I will flaunt, I will drool, I will avoid, I will follow, I will repel, I will come creeping, I will dissappoint, and I will get dissappointed. But the most important thing would be, I wont regret any of it... infatuationguy forever... to charm and to be charmed... 
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You are true about whatever you have written. It seems that particular incident has left a great impact on your life. May be that's the bed to give birth to your this attitude. In Psychology we call it escapism. I think you are quite intelligent & know yourself better than anyone else. Infatuation, desire, attraction, crush, sex, love, betrayal all are parts and parcels of the life. Having high libido is caused by nothing but sex hormones. Being confident is good but acting to be over-confident and becoming control freak is pushing you towards the dark side of life. Enjoyable sex helps us to relax and fulfill our sexual needs. There I agree with you. Hope you know your path. Keep moving buddy 
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