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The one in which I reveal how lame I am
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The one in which I reveal how lame I am I'm a sociable person. I like going out with friends, I'm usually the person that takes it to far so hilarity ensues, and over all a night out with me is overall a positive, if not borderline somewhat illegal, event. So why am I home on a Saturday night, fully dolled up, but in yoga pants and a tee shirt? Because I'm lame. I have friends in town for the A&M and Arkansas game and intended to join them out but my heart is telling me no. So here I am with a heavy thought and heart, trying to make sense of what is going on in my life. And making " Puppy Chow" and hoping to read more of " The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo." Here is a list of things I should be doing instead of blogging: 1. folding laundry. It's piled up on top of the kennel, and I'm just ignoring. 2. Making and eating dinner. Yup, have not eaten since 11:30, hungry, and just too damn lazy to cook. Too cheap to order in or go get something to go. 3. Bathing the feral wolves I call my sweet angel dogs. They haven't been bathed in a few months because despite being an excellent bather my 2 darlings are a nightmare to bathe. Hair every where, the lab pouts and won't want anything to do with me for a day...just best to avoid it and keep wiping them down with dryer sheets. 4. Work out. I had to freeze my gym membership due to this shit storm called life but I could take advantage of the free Exercise TV option on my Fios. But...fat girl = lack of motivation. 5. Going out with friends. I'm just over the bar scene and as much as I appreciate my friends I can only hear the same stories that pop up on Facebook and what not so many times. These are what I call seasonal friends, just folks I get together with during college football season and for good reason. I think now is an excellent time to reveal I'm unemployed and not enjoying it one damn bit. Due to budgetary reasons after 4 years with the company, less a 9 month " hiatus" with another office just to see how green the grass supposedly is, I was let go. In my industry I commanded a salary that mirrored my skill level. So, the problem I'm running into is that if I choose to stay with my profession I am over qualified but if I want to get my foot in the door elsewhere I'm under qualified. I've met with an employment placing agency which has been extremely beneficial with resume clean up and helping push me in the direction I need to go. The recruiter asked me what an ideal job for me would be if I could have a dream profession and I bluntly said, " Porn." It has been an industry I've actually considered, and to my merit there is an amateur video of me out there somewhere, researched, and support. I do have some options if I truly commit myself to doing it to at least get some cash flow going but the Catholic Morality I try to desperately suppress rears it's nagging head. I've always had an over active imagination so segueing from amateur pay site to something more physically demanding wouldn't be that hard. At the same time those who are incredibly successful and able to last for more than the 3 sequels to," Hardcore Cum Buckets" make somewhat of a brand of themselves with stripping and services. Here's the things, I was kicked out of ballet class at 7 due to my supreme lack of coordination and ability to balance. Stripping is out of the question for me, and having someone willing to pay for " a good time" with my sassy ass is unlikely. There's always drugs. And robbing a bank. I . I've been in enough interviews the last few weeks to make my head spin. I think I've perfected the interview speak so well I could contend for Miss America. That being said, I'm now somewhat at peace. Queer that I feel airing out my business to strangers vs. my family is more cathartic and soothing. Oh well, nothing I've ever done has been considered normal. To wrap up this entry, I leave you with this because it made me giggle.  All pretty girls are a trap, a pretty trap, and men expect them to be. |
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10/2/2011 2:05 am |
Sorry to hear about your employment status. I certainly hope that you are able to secure meaningful employment soon. Porn star? Yeah, I could see that. You certainly have the looks. The Catholic issue would for sure be a moral issue you'd have to get over, but then again you are who you are, and if this is a fantasy, or your ideal dream job.... There is always 1,000 Hail Mary's, and atonement.
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10/3/2011 4:14 am |
I'm sure it will work itself out for you darling. We just need to get you energized again and back on the saddle so to speak. If you chose to persue that occupation I would support ya in any way possible (might Even BUY a porno omg) just know you are an amazing person with a good heart and good things will come to those who persevere!!! And thats a funny ass picture too lol!
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