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How important is physical attraction to you in a sexual relationship
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How important is physical attraction to you in a sexual relationship “When she's abandoned her moral center and teachings...when she's cast aside her facade of propriety and lady-like demeanor...when I have so corrupted this fragile thing and brought out a writhing, mewling, bucking, wanton for my enjoyment and pleasure.....enticing from within this feral lioness...growling and scratching and biting...taking everything I dish out to her.....at that moment she is never more beautiful to me. ” Marquis de Sade I knew a submissive once… a woman to be sure I would have never chosen for myself on her physical attributes alone. She would offer stories of her depravity, lessons from her dominant, her thoughts and feelings in her submission. This woman would have me lust for her and not from what I could see but the things she made me feel, her effect on my life. “The Heart wants what it wants - or else it does not care” Emily Dickinson I heard once to vote with your head, vote with your heart, and vote with your gut but there was another who simplified this process with the phrase vote with your crotch Let me be clear that I am not abandoning the mortal coil as it were, if anything I wish to draw attention to the fact that if it were purely on the aspect of looks, I would no longer be a virgin. In part this explains my own passions, while I seek out such in both love and lust, I believe the complexities are focused more on those I lust for rather than those I love. “He's just a man. A man's gonna be a man. A man is basically as faithful as his options. That's how faithful a man is, no more, no less." Chris Rock For example, when I planned on losing my virginity on my twenty-ninth birthday, I was still chasing angels but I had concluded that love was no longer the order of the day. In that respect my celebration would have been nothing more but the<b> wet dream </font></b>of this libertine and thus the proceedings I had planned, costumes, camcorder, collars, were more a want than a need. Again if I had a lover I would expect no less but this would be my first time and to be sure my first time with someone I love would be less sadism and more… us. Yes I am getting off topic but how do I explain finding such beauty and daring to make one more beautiful and knowing that no one will see her as beautiful as I will. I often bring to mind the concepts of exhibitionism and voyeurism as fetishes but as I have thought out loud after a good porno… I want a girl so beautiful that I don’t want to make a porno with her. Beauty and sex appeal are not mutually exclusive but they do differentiate from time to time, for example lying in bed with a lover, is beautiful. If I were to take that same beauty wearing a “Hunger Games” jacket, hair in a braid and have her begging for Peeta that would be sex appeal. Putting them together would be less the moment itself and more my feelings, I abhor when beauty is spurned or made ugly, but I have no investment in meaningless sex, both make me feel somewhat ashamed but with the one I love… I did not love that submissive but that I knew of her wantonness and the fact that I knew her as a person, a mother, a writer, and the like, made her beautiful. She made me want her not only for looks but all she is, not just any woman could do such. How frequently the prospect or the paradigm of the perfect girl for me comes up… the physical is a construct I wish to fill with such ideations if she does not already have knowledge of such but physically… I imagine young strictly on the grounds that in all honesty I didn’t date in my youth… eighteen to twenty-eight and that submissive was actually in her thirties. Brunettes are my favorite, a close second brownish red or Auburn, dirty blondes, blondes, girls with black hair, and finally Hentai colors depending on the girl. With almost certainty I’ll be with a Caucasian woman, I wonder if I’ll ever find another perfect Boricua and once upon a time I had a thing for Asian women. Beggars can’t be choosers, Christian Grey had it made |
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Emily Dickinson nailed it, thanks for her quote!
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