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Souls that embrace. Have you ever?
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Souls that embrace. Have you ever? We have all had those experiences. First girlfriend or boyfriend and the giddy dancing way that feels. Or the beautiful comfortable romantic feel of a partner you love. Or the whirlwind thrill of a physical attraction consummated. But have you ever felt a sensation where, when you touch hands, that your soul reaches out as does theirs and embrace and caress each other. I have but once in my life for one night. It was a lady who started work where i worked. There was an unmistakable mutual attraction, one where you both know it instantaneously and mutual recognition in the eyes. She was single, i was with a partner i loved. So for me, whatever feelings were washing around inside, she was off limits. It was a choice as you all know between the way you honour and respect the commitments and bond you have or meekly give to infidelity. My word is my bond so the choice was easy. Come work Xmas party we had a function at a restaurant (partners included). At that stage of my life i was a bit of a freak dancing the night away nut. You know stay out to 3 am three times a week type. That was how my partner and i met. That night i wanted to get to the dance floor really badly. Kept asking my partner (to the point of pissing her off i suspect)....who instead was engrossed in conversation with a work colleague. Anyway, 'the lady', came to me grabbed my hand, asking my partner, if she take me to dance, coercing me to get up with her. My partner said yes please ....leave me alone or some such comment. lol I got my dance fix for the next 1 hr. Came a slow song.....i stood just shifting side to side not really dancing because there was no beat waiting for the song to finish and heat up again. She came to me and got me to slow dance with her........not pull me close, but prim proper type slow dance. Well what happened next has stayed with me for the rest of my life. As soon as we clasped hands it was as though our souls came through our fingertips reaching and caressing the other in a way i've never experienced before or after. The longer it went the more intense it became. A couple of times we looked at each other with instant recognition by us both of what we were both feeling. It was as though the rest of the world shut down and the only intake was the music and our souls embracing and caressing each other. The song finished and i sat down a little taken aback. A while later, a work colleague maternal figure came up to me and asked me pointedly what was going on......like we were in a trance. I simply shook my head, hadn't realised that whatever was happening could be seen. I had enough experience not to be tweaked by crush or<b> infatuation </font></b>or sexual impulse. This was none of those. It was a bond on a spiritual level I thought i was safe again. I wasn't. Many, including my partner and i decided to rage the hours away at a local dance club. Of course 'the lady' came too.This time my partner did dance and we had a great time until close at 3 am. We milled around outside chatting. "The lady' wasn't the nightclub type and so, being an attractive woman, had been bailed up by this guy outside the club trying to hit on her. She kept glancing over to us with 'help' me looks. My partner saw this and said to me that i had better go save her. I did, went over interrupted pretending to be her boyfriend and took her hand in mine to walk back to our group. Once again.....the same unmistakable feeling as before souls reaching out touching and caressing ; so intense it filled every cell of your being. That night, has been without doubt the most intense feeling i have ever experienced. We left and went home. Later i was to realise that my maternal friend had spoken to my partner who had seen the trance. She never said anything. I often wonder why she didn't, and why, seeing that connection that apparently obvious to all that she would then ask me to save her. Perhaps it was she just knew what we had....and trusted. Maybe it was because she knew and accepted 'we' would end (being an age mismatch- me younger). I never found out....i couldn't talk about what i had experienced. How could you...to a partner you loved! A few months later, 'the lady' left her job. Part of me thinks it was because she wanted but knew our match was forlorn and the heartache it was causing being that close to your matched soul was too much to bear. We had a goodbye dinner for her. My partner along. There was a poignant moment when final goodbyes were being made. I had intentionally stayed clear not wanting another 'episode.' She singled me out with her eyes with the beginnings of a tear in her eye in a look that told of the loss and sacrifice of something special yet unconsummated talking to me through her eyes, her lip quivered and she shrugged her shoulder in a gesture saying sorry for that loss. I will never forget that look or those feelings. 12 months later my partner and i separated. I tried to locate 'the lady' again but was never able to. I know that soul mates exist. I also know that it is rare and that it is immediate and can be felt and seen.....through the eyes.....and your touch. I sent mine away for the sake of my values. Wayne |
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