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Heartless Psycho
Heartless Psycho I had a dream about you last night.... Perhaps you are right, perhaps your nick for me was correct all along, maybe I am a heartless<b> psycho. </font></b>Maybe I'm not. I finally took your pictures down and hid them away.... Funny how something simple like that can have such a feeling of finality. It had been hard for me to do, you had become my best friend, my confidant, and it was SO hard for me to leave that behind. Oldest - You really did dump the Hippie. Me - Why do you say that? Oldest - His pictures are gone. He was a weird fucker, he didn't hunt or anything. Me - He wasn't raised that way... You know that. His Mother followed a Guru around for years, I'm sure they preached peace and love. Back to the dream.... In my dream we were on the beach. The sun was shining and the day was absolutely beautiful.... It was our favorite beach spot from a couple of summers ago when the water levels weren't so high at Sturgeon. I looked over at you and you smiled, your crazy hat nearly covering your eyes. And I woke up. I'm tearing up a little as I write this because I was a Heartless Psycho when I ended things. I've never had an issue ending anything.... I just say that's it, and that's it. Final. But there are times when I miss having that friend that I could just talk about my day with, and laugh about the stupid shit I experienced, and cry over the frustrating stress I deal with. I tear up because, our time has passed. |
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1/21/2020 2:35 am |
So sorry that you feel so alone and miss that interaction with someone you care for...and who loves you back.
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Wow! That brought back memories of someone I was close to a longtime ago. It was the part about lying in the sun on the beach that did it!
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I had a dream about my ex and 2 of her girlfriends. It was so weird I couldn't go back to sleep.
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12/27/2019 7:50 am |
I had a dream about my ex and 2 of her girlfriends. It was so weird I couldn't go back to sleep.
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Wow
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You're moving on and healing,, new year new start. Your dreams are just helping you to heal.
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It's hard to let go I believe that we define ourselves challenges confront us and we have to deal with him sometimes, it takes time plus, without change we cannot grow made me think of this Civil Twilight - "Human" There's one way out and one way in Back to the beginning There's one way back to home again To where I feel forgiven What is this I feel, why is it so real What am I to say It's only love, it's only pain It's only fear, that run through my veins It's all the things you can't explain That make us human
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Stuff Happens... doesn't it? I'm going to clean my closet and throw out (donate) clothes that I no longer wear. Cleaning up is good. Go for it! 👍
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Stuff Happens... doesn't it? I'm going to clean my closet and throw out (donate) clothes that I no longer wear. Cleaning up is good. Go for it! 👍 ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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It's hard to let go I believe that we define ourselves challenges confront us and we have to deal with him sometimes, it takes time plus, without change we cannot grow made me think of this Civil Twilight - "Human" There's one way out and one way in Back to the beginning There's one way back to home again To where I feel forgiven What is this I feel, why is it so real What am I to say It's only love, it's only pain It's only fear, that run through my veins It's all the things you can't explain That make us human To leave private messages, please use my confidential mailbox at my blog: Good luck!!!
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You're moving on and healing,, new year new start. Your dreams are just helping you to heal.
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Wow
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Heartless Psycho I had a dream about you last night.... Perhaps you are right, perhaps your nick name for me was correct all along, maybe I am a heartless psycho. Maybe I'm not. I finally took your pictures down and hid them away.... Funny how something simple like that can have such a feeling of finality. It had been hard for me to do, you had become my best friend, my confidant, and it was SO hard for me to leave that behind. Oldest Son - You really did dump the Hippie. Me - Why do you say that? Oldest Son - His pictures are gone. He was a weird fucker, he didn't hunt or anything. Me - He wasn't raised that way... You know that. His Mother followed a Guru around for years, I'm sure they preached peace and love. Back to the dream.... In my dream we were on the beach. The sun was shining and the day was absolutely beautiful.... It was our favorite beach spot from a couple of summers ago when the water levels weren't so high at Sturgeon. I looked over at you and you smiled, your crazy hat nearly covering your eyes. And I woke up. I'm tearing up a little as I write this because I was a Heartless Psycho when I ended things. I've never had an issue ending anything.... I just say that's it, and that's it. Final. But there are times when I miss having that friend that I could just talk about my day with, and laugh about the stupid shit I experienced, and cry over the frustrating stress I deal with. I tear up because, our time has passed.
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