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WHY AM I HERE? ASK AJ.  

sixtyneight69 75M
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5/10/2017 8:10 am
WHY AM I HERE? ASK AJ.

It's simple, I lost my soul mate to silliness or mental illness and want to commit suicide and cowardice is in the way, so I am committing social and moral suicide.

Six, nearly seven, years ago I met an outstanding woman in Florida and fell in love with her, in spite of common sense, two marriages, hundreds of GFs, FBs, etc., as I am now nearly 79 years old. I am still very healthy as I have been on testosterone 15 years (prescribed)., look and act 65 (or, just 15, LO. I used to tell her "I waded through thousands of beautiful women to get to you." Probably my first mistake.

I could write a book, maybe two -the second being porn- about our love and love- making, until today I am totally in love with her, irrevocatively. The only thing about our lovemaking was that she never allowed me to enter her vagina with my cock, anything else-OK- not cock. Continually refused to marry me, even with pre-nups. She made a vague reference to a priest when young, but then clammed up and I forgot it. To the other day (May 7/17), she stated:"You absolutely know that there is an emotional connection that we have that can never be severed."
and then,"Why can't we continue to be friends??" after she broke up with me and calmly asked me to leave in March, 2016. After 14 months of questioning "Why?", it seems I was getting too close and it scared her, after 78 years of maturity.

I am a Canadian and could be with her there only 182 days, but she came here for times in summer, money was not a problem for her. I spent five summers of<b> celibacy </font></b>for her in spite of horniness caused by the "T". Fell off the wagon for a possible second cousin once in Sept. 2015 only, and should never have admitted it. Someday I will gather the courage to end it. Meanwhile, anyone can have any part of me, please, except my heart.

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