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What do you do?
What do you do? Trigger warning. Proceed with caution if words can be upsetting for you. Not a happy poem. |
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I have been dissolved and shaken, Worn other people’s faces, Run madly, as if Time were there, Terribly old, crying a warning, “Hurry, you will be dead before—” (What? Before you reach the morning? Or the end of the poem is clear? Or love safe in the walled city?) —May Sarton, "Now I Become Myself" What do you do? written May 13th, 2021 What do you do with... the fires inside that tears can't put out and the floods of tears you think you will drown in because you are too tired to even float anymore the acid screams in your soul that melt everything around them but stay right in the center of your torso just below your ribcage the ache of your skin and muscles that makes you want to cut because that would hurt less than this does the smoldering black mass that you hide because you know others don't have it as part of their anatomy the words and stories and history the burning smoldering ache that is part of who you are but is never spoken out loud What do you do to lessen the throbbing urgency of it all? I don't want to die this way. Write it down. It is all I have figured out that helps a little bit. Then go lay down and rest. Shhhhh. . . It is ok. It will be ok. There is time.
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You live Enjoy life Do things Go places Look around Listen up Taste Touch Play Most of all Don't worry
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Thank you for sharing this, when I feel something similar to what you describe, I write down, take walk, listen to music. When it feels really bad, my cats seem to sense it, the 3 have taken turns at my side. Stay safe
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5/13/2021 6:14 pm |
nice
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At least you have figured out...to write it down. That in itself is a relief of sorts. Kudos to you for allowing that small sense of an outlet. Let it seep~~
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5/13/2021 6:46 pm |
Thanks for sharing. Words are powerful-you never know when someone else is feeling the same way but doesn't know how to express it for themselves...
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sen, so descriptive, but worrisome too. just know i'll always be around
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I have lately been pondering the price of admittance into this strange world of technicolor and darkness, no easy feat. I think it takes such courage to feel what you feel and channel it to the page through the letters we have been given. A very beautiful write. I felt or feel every segment of your excruciating beauty, down to my soul, in the smallest of increments. Keep being fearless in the face of The Fear... Love love Love the Sarton piece to enter in... *. *. *
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5/14/2021 1:05 am |
Interesting
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